a gurl hu...

ish called weizhen
is born on 19.08.92
is 14+ years old
lost her true self
lost all her confidence
lost 2 reality
nids frens
seeks help n guidance frm anybody
is seekin 4 her old self...

♥ frEnS
♥ 2739 dAreN 陈世维
♥ eVAn 蔡旻佑
♥ miCkEY
♥ chiPMuNk
♥ eEyORe

desires ::

tat me
laptop
I.P zone pants
I.P zone top
tat chain
tat stud
new bag
new slippers
new smeakers
new school shoes
new school bag
my own viola
re-paint my room

connects ::

[A]ngie
[A]nson
[A]strid
[C]alvin
[C]arrie
[C]heryl lim
[D]aren
[D]awn
[D]iya
[E]laine
[E]meline
[E]nergy
[E]van yo (cai ming you)
[F]ang yin
[F]elicia chin
[F].I.R
[G]ary
[H]anlong
[H]uijun
[H]uiyi
[J]ason
[J]elvin daddy
[J]iawen
[J]ia yu
[J]ia yuan
[J]ie min
[J]iro
[J]olene
[J]unli
[J]unxiang
[K]aiye
[K]angyang
[K]elvin
[L]eeteng
[L]eiyi
[L]ing yi
[M]an ting
[M]axi
[M]ayday
[M]elissa
[M]elvin
[M]ingrong
[M]oses
[P]eifen
[P]eishan
[R]achel
[R]ah
[R]ichmond
[S]ebastian
[S]hermaine
[T]ank
[V]anessa
[V]eron
[W]anling
[W]uzun
[X]uan hui
[Y]alun
[Y]anling
[Y]aoxin
[Y]iling
[Y]ingthong
[Y]ufang
[Y]un hann n kassandra
[Z]hi qi
[Z]hiyang
[Z]hiying

credits ::

Skin:!ADDICTED-

reminisce ::

April 2006[x]
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June 2007[x]

so long nv blog le... tat time com spoil... den cnt use... today last day of sch le... but nt excited at all... nt eager at all... dun even hope 2 have holidays... its lyk, almost everyday oso need 2 go sch... den sch re-open still need 2 go 4 tat toopid competition... so sian... now so tired siaa... den still gt sore throat.. now so pain... haiz.... y is my life so suay... haizz... gg off to rest le...

i love* MICKEY!-; 7:54 PM

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haizz... com spoil... cnt use com so often le... haizz... yst went mediacorp... so late den reach home siaa... so tired... today sat... came ah ma hse... so sian... nobody tok 2 miie de... my bro doing homework.... tried 2 send ah em the e-mail.. duno if she can receive anot... hope can la... haizz... duno wat 2 post... onli bout results ba... english FAIL... but overall pass la... den chinese top class 4 overall... sock siaa... math, got pull down by class test... science, A1... first time oso... geog, hist, lit n D&T i haven gt overall results... sian siaa... nth 2 post le la...

i love* MICKEY!-; 4:29 PM

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today got back some paper... nt very good... sian... com oso spoil... can onli use sch de com... sian siaa... den jus now PE oso so many ppl nt happy... haizz... now ICT... finish everything le... waiting 4 jieying... gg off soon... nt gg to post so often le...

i love* MICKEY!-; 4:59 PM

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the eeyore wif speaker function

the sound comes out frm the leg worr...

i love* MICKEY!-; 10:09 PM

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yst went 2 sch... everybody wierd wierd de... the moment i step into class, jason n lloyd was lyk "happy birthday" lloyd even said finally 14 yr old le.. i was lyk so blur... cos i dun think they noe my b'day... budden how did they noe?? im nt sure... mus be jieying... tats wat i tot... den they tok wif each other until wierd wierd de... their actions too... den suddenly jason said... "rang ta kan la" den jieying was lyk ok lor... den they took out a damn big de sylvester... so shocked siaa... its frm 8 ppl... special thx 2 jieying, huijun, jiawen, estelle, yiling, april, wanting n zhiying... reallie happy...

den went pasir ris at bout 5 2 meet elva n wendy... den went to buy bread... buy le took train 2 boon lay, which is at the other end of east west line n tat took us bout 1 hr 2 reach boon lay... meet cai yu n 2 which i 4got their name(sorry)... den went bus interchange 2 take 179 to NTU... we ran n ran n ran 4 the bus... budden 3 of them were laggin behind, so we have 2 take the other 179 which came bout 10 seconds after the 1st 179... den we board the bus, went to NTU... didnt noe whr 2 alight 4 the auditorium, so asked the bus driver... he told us the nxt stop so we alight thr... budden when we went down n ask the NTU ppl, they told us tat the audi is very far... luckily, gt 1 very damn kind n sweet NTU ger, she volunteered to take us thr cos she oso gg sum whr thr... actually she wanna take bus de lor... but we have 2 make her walk... she took us up so many stairs, slopes, bridges n roads until we finally reached wif lotsa sweat...

reached audi... saw lotsa ppl queueing us to go in cos is free seating de ma... den we no nid queue... jus stand thr... the chairperson of the event even came 2 tok 2 us siaa... so honoured siaa... den everybody go in le, we went in last... even the VIPs n sponsors oso go in le lor... den we were still standing thr... until gt another crew came n attend 2 us, we got the tix, went in frm the door FOR SPONSORS ONLY... woah... nv once felt so honoured siaa... den went straight 2 the front... right beside the sponsors... still gt board put DERRICK FAN CLUB... woah.. such grand b'day arh.. lolx... den when event started, we were lyk shouting when the hosts asked whether anybody came 2 support the contestants den they ask whu we supporting den we say weijian... they were lyk havin 3 drops of sweat on their head... den when weijian came out, we shouted even more... we were takin the so called battery operated light sticks n waving n takin pictures...

den end of event... we went on stage 2 take pix of weijian...den at bout 11+, which was less den 1 hr b4 my b'day, i managed 2 shake weijian de hands... OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! best b'day present ever...

den took bus 2 boon lay interchange again... already 11.15 le... den took train... actually alighted at outram at 12++ budden the moment miie n wendy came out, they say, no more train 2 punggol n harbour front... den immediatedly jumped back into train...so heng siaa.. den went pasir ris wif elva n siew yin... siw yin alighted earlier den we went all the way 2 pasir ris... took cab... let elva join us cos no more bus le n its on the way oso la... den followed by wendy n last miie... we share fares la... didnt expect it 2 be so cheap la... onli 12.50 n its mid night u noe... reached home at bout 1++ den went 2 slp...

happiest b'day ever... wun 4get yst... the first time i countdown my b'day outside.... wif wendy, elva n siew yin... they were lyk so friendly siaa... finally found my clique in DjEiRaInC... gg out wif yan ling... post again nxt time...

i love* MICKEY!-; 2:05 PM

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sick so long... stomach so pain... yst nv go sch... see the doctor wait 4 so long siaa... den today common test... nv study much... english nv do finish... geog dunno how 2 do... tmr math n lit... hope can pass... budden sure fail de la... no mood study... now still sick... haizz... stop here... will post more aft exams...

i love* MICKEY!-; 3:37 PM

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geog. book in front of miie... cnt concentrate... i've been thinkin alot... saw the pic when i open msn... den heard my sis play the song... the familiar song... 18th day... dunno wat im thinkin... cnt seem to 4get the memmories... i made ppl hate him... now i cnt make myself hate him... jus dun lyk him.. nt hate... reallie dunno wat im thinkin... 4get it... try gg back 2 studies now... hopefully i can...

i love* MICKEY!-; 8:45 PM

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today, more ppl seems 2 noe bout my hatred towards him... more ppl started 2 dislike him... den jus now went lab 4 java training... ms ng nv reallie teach... jus gave us worksheet 2 do n websites 2 read info... quite sian... budden cnt do anything... still mus carry on training... cos onli 1 mth n 4 days left... if we dun buck up, will make many ppl dissapointed de... actually nt many la... onli fred... and mabbe Dr Ng ba... budden even if they wun be dissapointed, we will still disgrace ourself... so, i will reallie buck up n hope tat within the next mth, we can reallie becum JAVA PROs... nt reallie java pro la... jus can understand java betta la... n can at least win sumthing?? hope so ba... common test nxt wk... still haven study much yet... die le la... but no mood leii... dunno how... jus pray 4 the best ba... gt 1 more weekend 2 study hard n hope tat i will score well... or at least nt get B 4 most subject la... gg 2 mug 4 the common test le... n nt gg to post so soon le... everybody good luck worr... mus study le...

i love* MICKEY!-; 6:32 PM

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i love* MICKEY!-; 8:34 PM

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yst sch gt national day celebration... den gt NC superstar... the solo category all quite good la... budden the group category lyk shit lor... onli si jia n asterid de grp quite ok... even kai xin and gladys ish nt as gd as during rehearsal... den during results... solo category 3rd is si jia, 2nd is asterid, 1st is stephanie poh frm sec 3... grp category... 3rd is gladys n kai xin... 2nd is asterid n si jia, 1st is tat stephanie de grp... fuck la... they sing until so nan ting... jus cos they gt the solo grp de champion in their grp den they can get first meh... toopid idiotic brainless mr koh...

den aft concert go back class take national day souvenir... den found out tat it is the damn ugly n useless de keychain... den we gt class deco. 1st ma... den gt another prize... den ish colour pen... den i run 2 first row take the silver de.. the others so ugly siaa...den aft tat went suntec... acually, when we reach city hall, cnt find the shuttle bus, decided nt 2 go... cos i 4got how 2 walk thr... cos last time i walk outside de ma... den aft tat ask my mum... she say can go frm city link... so we went thr... at first quite sian lor... budden aft tat, went toy 'r' us (sumthing lyk tat la)... den we went crazy...take the toys n play play play...

den aft tat i took a toy duck la... den play... den they say started tokin bout mr yeo... haizz... dun tok bout him la... den aft tat went to the other side... play wif animal puppet la(the glove type)... den huijun take bear, jieying took lion... den no other type le... so i took the gorilla de... den they say bout mr yeo again... walau... gif miie a rest la... dun feel lyk tokin bout him le lor... since he wanna 4get us, y mus we keep tokin bout him... im havin a bad impression on him since dunno when...

den aft tat walk walk walk den went watch the ant bully... quite nice la... budden the cinema ish damn empty lor... my infront whole few rows empty leii... den i still can put my bag at the empty chair beside miie siaa... den aft tat went walk walk again... almost finished walkin round suntec.... so went marina square... they sian sian de... so go home lor...

we were walkin along citylink... den jieying saw very cute de toy duck softtoy.... den we walk into hallmark(dunno how 2 spell)... den we(miie n jieying) each took a duck... den huijn started to tok bout mr yeo again... im so frustrated lor... mr yeo mr yeo mr yeo... when can everybody stop... in sch, sebastian keep tokin bout mr yeo... outdide, jieying n huijun keep tokin bout him... im damn feddup le... everybody dunno y i dun lyk him le.. or can say start 2 hate him le... budden i jus dun feel lyk tokin 2 him whenever i see him online nowadays cos since tat day, everytime i tok 2 him, he seems frustrated... dun wanna tok 2 miie... can see tat he ish tryin 2 4get us... imagine sum1 ish tryin 2 4get us n we are still tokin bout him almost everyday... alwayz tot he ish a gd teacher n a gd fren... but now i think he ish nt... he ish jus sum1 who passed by our life... dunno bout others... but he will definitely leave my life... nt leaving a mark... cos i dowan sum1 who tries 2 4get us to be our fren... he ish nt my fren now n will neva be again...

cnt imagine i once treated tis kinda person as my fren... cnt believe i once treated him so well... cnt believe i created a blog 4 him... cnt believe i join the competition 4 him... cnt believe i contributed 4 his present... cnt believe i felt so sad when he was leaving... cnt believe i cried upon seeing his ultra long msg... cnt believe i once said i will nv 4get him... cnt believe he ish tis kinda person...

tat day he came back... sms-ed miie tell us go up lab look 4 him... tot wat he wanted us 4... budden when we went up lab, he was teachin another person... he 4got wat he call us up 4... still need 2 think... den he jus gave miie a stack of assignment we did last time n tell miie return 2 the others... nth else le... i was so dissapointed... y cnt he jus tell ms ng 2 return to them... n i tot wat he wanted us up thr 4... he gave us the i dun care le de attitute... den jieying was tellin him "we go le hor..." n he replied " go la..."... tat two words was so sarcastic... den we left... den aft tat sebastian tell us go lab again... he nv say anything 2 us... den ms ng came... ask us bout the nsc day n time... den sebastian n jieying was quarrelling bout the time n break n wateva... miie n huijun was lyk so frustrated le lor... althou tell ms ng the date le... budden when went out of lab, they quarrel again... sms-ed him n ms ng... both same msg... sayin sebastian n jieying quarrelling bout nsc... ms ng replied... with concern... but him, nt a single word or comment... frm tat day, reallie dissapointed... wun ever treat him as anybody again... jus a teacher who have once taught miie...

hopefully nobody tok bout him again... let time jus let us 4get him...

i love* MICKEY!-; 11:24 AM

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y did it turn out to be lyk tat??

few days ago, i still hate her... hate her 4 being so irresponsible... hate her 3 acting so friendly... i complained 2 him... say i hate her... even say tat she sux...but now, i dunno wat happen to me... i cnt make myself hate her... when i tok 2 her (through msn, sms or verbally) i feel tat i dun hate her le... i tried 2 make myself hate her again... but i failed... i gave her lotsa chances after she ruined so many... and the more she act friendly,the more i cnt make myself hate her...

and dunno wat happen... nowadays, whenever i tok 2 him (through msn, sms or verbally), i feel the distant between us... cnt tok 2 him lyk b4 le... although he ish still a fren, we r nt tat close le... we r drifting apart...
alwayz feel tat he ish frustrated whenever i tok 2 him... den dun dare say much... dun even dare tok 2 him lor...

its onli been a wk... n i've changed so much...althou still dun 100% trust her, jus feel closer 2 her... at least much closer den when we first met... and its onli been lyk a wk plus... dun feel tat close 2 him le... especially when he dun reply sms-es or when he reply sms-es n msn wif very sian answer... feel tat he dun lyk 2 tok 2 us... or izzit jus miie?? jus feel tat we r nt gg 2 be lyk b4... the 5 of us, laughing, chatting, joking 2gether... but even so, im gg to keep tat 194 days of unforgettable memmories all locked inside my mind...

dun reallie noe how he feels, how she feels, hoe they feel... but the feelings tat i felt... it is thr n i cnt contol it...hopefully everything goes fine n i will nt feel so lost again...
(p.s. im nt a lesbian... both he n she n they r jus frens... its onli a matter of close n nt tat close de frens onli...)

i love* MICKEY!-; 8:54 PM

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he is cummin back tmr... den tmr oso gt java training... so ma fan siaa... den dun even noe how she will teach... hope she teach le we will understand ba... reallie bu shuang her lor... keep acting friendly n think tat we r very close... but actually we r nt... den i think hor, she hate him... keep tokin bad bout him... hope tmr goes well... omg my right eyelid is twitching...

i love* MICKEY!-; 6:19 PM

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i love* MICKEY!-; 4:02 PM

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yst night, received e-mail frm ms ng... say today n thurs n fri gt ict... i
send her sms ask bout nsc... she nv reply until today morning 6++.... actually
tot she is quite friendly lor... they way she reply my sms... jus now went labat
2.30... lab almost full...tot she haven ask the ppl 2 go to the other lab... go
ask her... she told us "today's ic is cancelled".. wat de hell... yst aft sch, i
already went to ask her whether today gt ict anot le lor... she said have... n
through the e-mail, she oso say have.... n through sms she oso nv tell miie bout
cancellation of ict... i so damn angry lor... wats more... she still gave us tat
'its none of my prob' de face lor... how can she do tat... ive nv ever been so
angry at anybody b4... in the morning, i trusted tat she will nt be as bad as we
thought n i thought tat we will be fine wif her... although at first i oso dun
lyk her, but i eventually accepted the fact tat she will be teaching us n i
didnt reallie complain much bout her today morning... but how can she do tat...
like like den cancel ict... she GOT send us an e-mail... but is at 10.30 in the
morning... brainless freak : we are in school lor... how 2 see ur e-mail... she
is reallie a brainless freak lor... im gg to revenge when i gt a chance... nv gg
to let her off so easily... jus now, miie walked out of the lab so angrily...
didnt even care bout how she feel... dun even wanna care lor... den outside,
when we were walkin back 2 class, sebastian called mr yeo... we complained...
but i dare nt listen 2 his voice... im scared... scared tat i will breakdown...
his departure have already caused much depresion in miie..... now tat brainless
freak ng yan qi... im nv gg 2 4give her... she didnt even say sorry... she didnt
even feel sorry... i'll make her pay for her actions...

NG YAN QI SUX!!! SHE IS A BRAINLESS FREAK!!!

i love* MICKEY!-; 5:04 PM

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