ish called weizhen
is born on 19.08.92
is 14+ years old
lost her true self
lost all her confidence
lost 2 reality
nids frens
seeks help n guidance frm anybody
is seekin 4 her old self...
today 4th day of sch. quite sian... den today gt MUSIC... so damn sian...
dowan music lessons la... haizz... den mr koh tok n tok n tok... si sian.... den
still tok bout dunno wat nonsense la... haizz.. den aft tat, we went IT lab 4...
for music... wierd rite... budden we went thr to learn keyboard(the musical
instrument la)... lolx... budden miie still dun lyk music... so sian... even
more sian den IT... haizz... den aft tat is CME... quite fun... mdm ngo created
a game den 6 volunteers muz play la... they is richmond, kangyang, cheekit,
hanlong, ashley n tinhwee... they have to be blind folded, den have to hold
strings la.. den we have to tell them a shape den they will have to form the
shape... so farnie... they suddenly lost the sense of direction... lolx... so
farnie... we all laugh until stomach pain... den aft tat ish sch. over... den
waited until viola de time... den when we go viola, we play texians... so
sian... play so many hrs de texian... when go home, muscle so pain... haizz...
den nxt wk still muz go viola... haizz... sian... den juz now, miie juz went to
the NSC webbie... saw the registered teams for the competition... the algorithm
competition gt 16 schools leii... we diie le la... den hor, i saw my name on the
website... feels so wierd... lolx... den i went to see the past yrs video... den
saw the process of the competition... frm the training to the prize giving... so
scared... especially when i saw tat thr's so many ppl in a reallie huge rm den
we onli each team have 1 table leii... den after we solve the problem den give
to the judge, we still muz sit in front of the judge to explain or wateva de
la... so damn scary... dowan join le... mabbe i'm nt reallie gd at IT den mabbe
i nt interested at alll den mabbe i shldnt have joined the training at first...
sure diie le... althou still gt dunno how long la(frm now till 16 sept)...
actually ish nt very long la... budden if wanna improve so much overnight, its
almost impossible... haizz.. sure hwa chong or raffles win again la... haizz...
mabbe hard work isnt juz enough.... mabbe everybody meed alittle bit of talent
to be able to accomplish things... mabbe i juz dun have the talent... mabbe i
juz cnt put in my hard work... mabbe liking IT(in the beginning la... nt now
reallie) is a mistake... mabbe i shld juz give up... so many mabbe floated in my
mind... shld i quit?? shld i give up?? mabbe i shld..... i juz dun have the
courage to face failure again... im already so stressed by homeworks n so many
other events... mabbe sebastian is right... if in the end we cnt even solve a
qn, we are reallie a failure... althou many ppl told miie tat process is wat
matters n nt the result but i noe im reallie a very result oriented person... i
cnt change overnight... budden i muz tell myself i cnt give up... im the 1 who
persuaded jieying(at first) nt to quit the competition... told her alot... den
aft tat, miie oso persuaded sebastian nt to quit... he's juz too stressed n now,
we all have to face tis kinda problems... haizz... i told them nt to give up
every single little hope... even if we juz have a thousand out of one chance tat
we will win, at least we tried... i wun give up... for they didnt give up...
haizz... now im wondering... m i an optismistic person or a pessimistic
person... i alwayz have 2 thinking in my mind... the gd 1 n the bad 1... the two
thinking which is alwayz in my mind, is alwayz making miie very fustrated...
mabbe i shld juz stop thinking... tats the best solution... juz hoope my brain
can breakdown 4 a day.... den i can reallie rest... haizz... life is so
tiring... budden if life is too peaceful, it will be damn boring... haizz.. miie
n my double thinking... i'll stop here...